Weird Day December 26th 08

I made this plan for that day : I'm gonna buy 'twilight' and 'new moon' at Grand Indonesia's Gramedia book store (since they were having 30% disc for all items, and 26th is the last date) with my husband-to-be (my boyfriend).
Because my boyfriend's will be at his office for some business, i'll pick him up there, and then we'll have a date all day.
That was important, because on Saturday 27th, he'll be out of Java for a week, and we won't see each other till January 5th. I was just afraid that he won't come back somehow, and felt that i need to spend more time with him before he leave.

But that was just a plan.

this is what happened on that 26th :

morning :
I help my dad working my future bedroom's balcony. My hand got stained and dried by cement, and my arms are totally exhausted because of it.

my honey woke up late, so he won't be at his office on time as planned. And we're both afraid that we probably won't have any time for date.

I got a phone call, it's my dad's cousin, he said that his father (my grandma's little brother) was sick. He ask if i could come give him a visit at hospital.
This Grandpa is one of my favorite. I lived with him for a year during my senior year at high school. He's the funniest, silliest, kindest, and very strong person. And i love him.

Mom decided, that i could give him a visit with my honey. After i bought the books i want.

And after i told my honey, he said sure, okay. But he need to go to the printing lab before night. I said okay. Grandpa could wait, besides, he's family were all there taking care of him.


Day :
Honey won't be able to accompany me to the book store. So i went there alone. Looking for the twilight and new moon.
After going around in circle trying to find the book between rush people who were dying to get last day's disc, i found it. Just the twilight, without the new moon.

I was intended to go over round the circle again trying to find the new moon. But i don't know, i told myself :

"hey, don't be greedy. You've got the twilight with a good price. Perhaps you didn't get the new moon, but one book is enough. You have someone waiting. and a tight schedule today.."

And surprisingly, i stopped. I mean, i went straight away to pay this book. And start walking to honey's office, without mourning about the new moon i didn't get.

afternoon :
I met my husband-to-be at his office. He's just as nice as usual. Warm and gentle.
He was finishing his job, having chit chat with me. I told him many times... please don't go. ( i know that was just so selfish, but i can't help it ).
I asked (pushed) him to stay with me longer before we go on to the next schedule for that day.

so it was quite late (almost six) when we finally decided to go to the printing lab (which is an hour away by bus).

night :
So we went there, continuing chit chat on bus. Arrived late, and lab's owner said to my honey (when he saw me there) :

"i guess now you're ready to print your own wedding invitation, eh?" and smiled to us.

We went in hurry. Remembered that we have another appointment to visit my grandpa. So we took the cab.

And as usual, when we ride a cab, i used to fall asleep on his lap. And he usually hugged me. I loved it, knowing that i'm safe and loved in his arms.

When suddenly, his phone rang. He got text, from my sister, asking him whether he's with me. Because she can't get me on phone. I texted her, said i was sorry, my phone's inside my bag, i must've missed the vibrating alert somehow.

What's up anyway?

and she told me, Grandpa's just passed away.

So she said I don't have to go to the hospital, just straight away to my aunt's house where my grandpa's wife waiting for his body home.

Because I don't know her address, i kept busy calling my mom and trying to get her address. And i don't feel sad at all.

But when there was silence, i wasn't using my cell phone, that sadness just came down to me, and i started to cry.

my tears dropped. Silently.

I could stop it of course, hey, i'm proud of myself for being rational and never got emotional when i decide anything. So i stop crying when i got to my cell again. Busy calling my aunts and uncles and mom, trying to get her address.

And when we got that, I cried again.

passed my bedtime :
We arrived at my aunt's house. I found my grandpa's wife. I cried with her. I can't stand it anymore.

He was the greatest grandpa.. tough the only blood we shared was my great grandfather's.

My honey waited patiently, trying to keep me feel comfort, rubbing my back as he always does. And we waited for Grandpa's body from the hospital.

My mom and dad arrived later.

I fell asleep on my mom's lap.

almost midnight :
My grandpa's body arrived. I woke up just in time.

I saw his body, wrapped in white fabric, they opened the fabric so everyone can see his face for the last time, before they took him to Pekalongan.

Whoever said that dead body could look exactly the same as if they were sleeping, it was a lie.

Death has took all his youth. As it did took his life. His skin looks black and he's definitely not my grandpa. He never looked that ugly before.
That time, i couldn't stop crying. Until...

midnight :

They took his body away. Got it prepared for a long trip by car to Pekalongan. Way back to his home.

...................

after midnight :
we went home together, me, my honey, my parents and my uncle.

I slept on honey's lap again. My eyes were so tired and i was having a great headache.

..................

It was just so weird,

my wish to be with my honey longer before he went out town was fulfilled.
He was with me all night long. It was my grandpa's death who made it happened.

such an ironic.

and this morning, i got sausage-shaped like under my eyes.
I cried too much last night.

My grandpa's now rest. For his long sleep forever.

And my honey's alive, far out of this island... out of this town for a week, only a week.

I think i can deal with that.

*hey, grandpa... let's go fish my socks in your house's well again, soon..

i miss you... hope you're happy there."